Will the rain ever stop?
No big deal. I walked inside with the walking DVD. I did the Yoga and the stairs at work yesterday. I even parked as far away from my office as possible so I would get that much more walking in.
If you’ve been reading the comments, you’ll see where my good friend, Thea, told me how she’s been getting in shape by stepping every hour on the hour for 3-5 minutes. I like that idea! I’m going to start trying that!
By the way, you all should check out Thea’s site, I LOVE reading all the stuff on her site! I also enjoy watching the movies and reading the books that she suggests. She has inspired and motivated me to great things in the past year or so! I can’t wait to get her email every day. Her new book, Time For My Life: 365 Stepping Stones, is AMAZING! I am thankful that she is my friend.
This morning I was a little blah. I don’t like feeling blah, but I always know that when I’m blah, then something isn’t right so I try to make myself figure out what it is before I do anything else. No sense being blah when I can feel fantastic. 
I think I figured it out and I’ll try to put it into words. I just don’t like making such a big deal about this body image thing. It’s not that I don’t want to do it or that I’m rethinking the priority I’ve placed on it. It’s just that I think it’s going to remain an issue until I make it a non-issue.
I started thinking about other things that I’ve overcome in my life. There was a time when I was stressing out about my house and keeping it clean. I remember Joyce Myers saying that as long as I couldn’t get my housework under control, I could never move on to bigger and better things. That made me mad when she said it because I struggled with keeping my house clean every single day. I couldn’t imagine it NOT being a struggle or stress-producer. And I certainly couldn’t see any way to get it under control.
I tried Flylady and every form of self-discipline that I could read about. Nothing seemed to work. No matter how hard I tried, I just could not learn to like cleaning house or cooking. Then a couple of years ago, I decided that it was not going to be an issue any more. I was going to start paying someone to get it done. I wasn’t sure I could afford it at the time, but I was going to try.
That year, for my birthday, my Mom gave me the best present I’ve ever received. She gave me the gift of cleaning my house for me every other week. Once it became a non-issue for me I was amazed at how much more energy and time I had. It wasn’t just the time and energy that it was taking me to actually clean the house, but the time and energy it took for me to stress out about the house not being clean. I saved all the time I had spent dreading cleaning the house. I really didn’t realize how much it was really draining me until it wasn’t an issue anymore.
The same thing happened on my job. There was someone that was making things hard for me at work. It wasn’t until I took action and decided that I had to change some things that I did have control over, that it started to become a non-issue. I was amazed at how much time and energy I had been wasting because it had been SUCH an issue for me. The funny thing was that the action I took, had nothing to do with the final solution to the whole problem. The action I took seemed to have been only a catalyst to get the ball rolling and the circumstances changed on their own, seemingly unrelated to my actions. When I made it become a non-issue, the situation changed.
I think I have to make my weight and body image a non-issue. How do I do that? I don’t think ignoring the problem is the answer. I need to take action, even if it’s to get my mind moving in the right direction. I think, for me, it’s more about taking the emotion out of it. I have to get it set in my mind that my lifestyle must change so that this is a non-issue. I am now an active person. I MUST be. I have to trust the process. I have to build these things into my day and not stress about them. Just accept that these are things I must do like brush my teeth or go to the bathroom. It’s just something that has to be done. I must quit making a big deal about it and just do it without even thinking.
If my Mom were to quit cleaning my house (and I’ve begged her to stop) I would hire someone to do it. It’s worth most any amount of money to not have that worry or stress in my life. The time I save by not having to worry about my house allows me to make even more money with my job – it saves me countless hours. When things get bad on the job, I now know that I must remedy the situation as soon as possible to keep from draining my energy and my time. It’s not worth it. Even finding another job would be better than the stress that a bad situation causes. I believe that stress is the root of all sickness.
So, maybe the stress from my body image being such an issue is the root of all the extra weight to begin with? Maybe when I make the weight and body image a non-issue, my body will respond positively. It’s certainly worth a try. Now my work is to make this a non-issue so that I can move on to the bigger and better things. I do SO want that.
This doesn’t mean the updates will stop. It just means that they won’t be such a big deal. And that I can move on to bigger and better things.
I’m looking forward to that. I’m sure you are too
