Getting In Shape Update – Day 3

Another Rainy morning. We have had more than our fair share of rain lately. As you can see, Roxie is upset that we don’t get to go for our walk. She likes to jump on my desk to watch out the window. Today, like me, she can only see it rain. But, you will have to admit, it’s still a pretty good view

I was really sore yesterday. I was amazed that just walking and Yoga could make me that sore! I guess that’s a good thing. I felt as if it must be working At least until I got dressed to go to my office in Nashville. Then I felt fatter than ever. I started to get a little depressed. It just doesn’t seem to work as quickly as I would like for it to work. I also know and believe that as long as I feel fat, I will not get the momentum and energy headed in the right direction. I will get whatever I focus on, so if I focus on what I don’t want, that’s exactly what I will get.

As the day went on, I tried to focus on what it would feel like to be slimmer. I walked at lunch and I took the stairs back to my office – all seven floors! I thought as I headed up that I could get off on another floor if I got tired and then take the elevator the rest of the way up. So around floor five, I started to get tired and was going to take the elevator from there. But, there was a sign on the door that said something like “under surveillance – do not enter unless emergency”. Uggghh! I slowly made my way to the sixth floor. Again, the SAME sign! I drug myself to the seventh floor. I made it but I thought I would pass out. It wasn’t that my legs were burning so much (even though they were), but that I could not seem to catch my breath! I waited at the door until I didn’t seem like I would scare someone with all my heavy breathing and then went back to my office.

By the time I got home from work last night, I was really beginning to feel tired. I went for another walk when I got home even though my bladder was hurting and I felt so tired. I was hoping that it would give me more energy, but it didn’t. I started to quit a couple of times because of the bladder pain, but I didn’t. I was really proud of myself for sticking with it, but I felt that old familiar frustration with the pain and thoughts of giving up were jumping around in my head.

I skipped the yoga last night. I was just too tired – emotionally, mentally, and physically. I found it hard to even sit in my chair and work on the few client sites that I needed to work on. I did accomplish a little but headed to bed early.

This morning, I still feel a bit tired. The rain doesn’t help. I’m also still sore. I wasn’t going to do the yoga this morning, but decided to watch the new routine instead. Then, as I watched, I decided to go ahead and try it. I felt much better after doing the routine. One thing I really like about yoga is that you only push it as much as you feel comfortable pushing it. I don’t feel bad for not being able to do the poses as deep as the yoga instructor, and I still get a great workout. It seems strange to me that just stretching can give you such a great workout but I can definitely feel it afterwards. Better yet, is the relaxation that I always feel when I’m done.

I’m going to try to never let myself skip two sessions in a row. Each time I skip a session, it gets easier to skip the next and before I know it, I’m out of practice again. I’m determined to stick with it.

Marna’s email this morning helped me to see the reasons that I often overeat. I’m glad that I have that program to help me with my thinking to compliment the yoga and walking that I’m doing. I think the ‘thinking’ work is really the most important part.

I’m hoping to do the walking DVD for the rest of my lunch hour today. I’ll let you know how it goes.

Rain, rain, go away!