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Life gets in the way sometimes. Business has been good. I’ve been up to my knees in websites. That’s a good thing, but it has also kept me from some of the things that I love to do. And I’ve vowed to never get THAT busy again. How many times have I made that vow?

Through each season of busy-ness, I always seem to learn some lesson. I’ve noticed that my interests have changed. Maybe I’m more mature. Maybe that’s a good way to say I’m getting old. But, I seem to think it’s more of a spiritual growth kind of thing. I was reading a book about Grace the other day (check my bookstore for this book and more!) and it talked about Christians that are sitting down on the inside. That really spoke to me because I feel like it explains where I’m at right now. I feel that I’m now sitting down on the inside. And I think that’s a part of spiritual growth.

Things just don’t bother me the way they used to bother me. I don’t get bent all out of shape when I’m faced with sin or with evil. I just seem to take things more in stride. I can see sin, call it sin, pray and go on. I still have peace. And when I’m supposed to act, the Spirit directs me in how I should act. Before, I jumped on it with both feet and ended up condemning folks when that’s the last thing they needed. I’m sure it drove them further away from my Lord instead of closer.

When I’m faced with danger or fear, I just pray and speak to the danger or fear and go on. I keep my peace. The peace of God is awesome! Unlike any peace here on earth. But, it takes a faith like I’ve never had before.

My little girl has been sick. She had something that the doctor just couldn’t explain and didn’t seem to understand. He told me that it was probably a virus but could be something much more serious and would mean a hospital stay and tests. That scared me. And when I got in the car to take my baby home, I realized that I had a choice. I could panic, worry and drive myself (and everyone else) crazy or I could just put it in God’s hands, speak to the dreaded symptoms and command them to leave, pray and ask God to heal her body, and then go on believing that it was taken care of in God’s time - OR - I could go home, get online and check out this dreaded disease that she might have, which would scare me and worry me even more. I chose the first option and immediately she started getting better. I did call a few folks and ask them to pray and emailed a few more and asked them to pray, but I didn’t let it take over my mind. I trusted God to do His will and give me the strength to get through whatever happened. And He did. I won’t say I wasn’t worried, but each time a worried thought crossed my mind, I took it captive and threw it out instead of dwell on it. I had God’s peace. Jesus was my answer - He IS my all in all and the ONLY thing I need.

Today, my little girl is 99% better. God took care of it. And He always will. And I made another great advance in my spiritual growth. I’m sitting down on the inside and resting in Him. It’s not always easy, but it sure feels better than jumping up and running or fighting or going crazy! I think I’ve reached the Promised Land! And it IS filled with abundance! And rest. The sweet peace of Jesus.

Cindy